Stronger than I think?

Sometimes in life I think we truly underestimate ourselves. I was pleasantly suprised to find that has been the case with my hubby being gone all the time now. I always thought that I would fall apart and not be able to handle anything...but I have and to myself amazingly well. House is relatively clean...kids as well, and although we miss Jason around here...we are all generally happy. Dinner is a lot different, unfortunately a lot of eating out (but not large expensive places and Huge meals). However it doesn't seem to make sense to cook when generally half of what I make is consumed by someone who isn't here. Food is wasted and cost as much as an easy meal at Taco Bell. (Plus I really hate dishes--) Nights are different as well as I never know whether I have an extra body in the bed, with him working nights some. At first I was allowing the kids to take turns in the bed or on the floor...but between Alyssa's need to be so close that she pushes you off the bed and Victoria's loud talking in her sleep...I was getting NO sleep. So Game off. It is also amazing how much more Jason and I seem to enjoy one another's company, as it seems like it is so rare these days.
On another note...weight loss and exercise unfortunately has taken a back burner. After vacation it seems that I lost all motivation...between girls sick and no Jason I lost focus. On the other hand I have miraculously managed to maintain the loss I have had---which has gotten me 1/3 the way to my total goal. Still a long ways left...but a significant loss and wonderful to have to get rid of clothes that sag on me---YEA! So I am going to try and commit to a better effort in that area...it'll have to start with the gym and the food from there. All in all I am amazed that something must have changed in my eating patterns otherwise it would all start returning and that hasn't happened. Again---YEA! What a myriad of thoughts...but that is how my brain works...btw--ever noticed you accidently put the wrong song on your playlist--I was just listening and was like "What the heck is this?" ---Certainly not the song I had thought I put! Oh well!